Just a quick update. I had another ultra sound on Wednesday because they decided they did want me to come in earlier than the one scheduled for the 21st, and there are still no changes. I’m still measuring right around 2cm. While 2cm isn’t good, the fact that things haven’t gotten worse are great! That means the progesterone seems to be doing what it is supposed to, as well as the modified bed rest. I must say I have really really good days when I feel like things could be way worse, and really really bad days when I over analyze every little ache and pain. I suppose that is to be expected though. I’ve had lots of aches and pains lately though, which makes sense. At almost 23 weeks this is one of those growing periods for baby. Last night though I put myself into a full blown panic attack worrying that I was going into labor even though I knew in the back of my head that it was simply… gas. I clearly need to learn to calm myself down.
On not baby related news we signed a lease to rent a house yesterday and will be able to start moving in next week. A whole house!! With windows! It has been so long since I’ve lived in a place with windows. The tiny studio apartment we live in now is located in the basement of the lodge at our job. We get to live there for free because we are the caretakers. So we answer late night emergency phone calls, check on the building if the alarm system goes off, etc. So I can’t really complain about the lack of windows because we’ve been living for free and it has given us a great jump ahead on saving up for a new place but still, windows!! I’ve never been so excited for natural lighting in my life. I’ve also been feeling like I really want to start nesting, I think it will help keep me distracted, so I will have a whole house to nest in. Unfortunately we have absolutely no furniture besides our bed and babies crib, but that will come with time. At least we have a place to put the baby and I have a Pack ‘N’ Play on the way. I don’t care if we don’t have any other furniture as long as I have a place for him.
Other than those two changes nothing really new is going on. I’ll have another ultra sound with the MFM on the 21st. I’m about a week away from viability. That will be a big step for us. One day at a time, but that will be a tiny release before I start super panicking again. Also the tech I saw Wednesday told me after 24 or 25 weeks they will stop checking me as often because it isn’t going to get better and they know that but that they will at least feel better knowing I’ve made it that far, especially if I stick around the same cervical length. The fact that they also breathe a tiny sigh of relief makes me feel a tiny bit better also. I can’t explain why, because it shouldn’t necessarily but it does.
That’s it for now. Hopefully I can get a few pictures of the house and I have many more ultra sound pics to share, likely tomorrow!