How far along? 14 weeks!
Weight Gain: I gained 2 pounds at my last appointment which totaled to 8 pounds lost in the first trimester. I don’t have a scale at my house because I am to obsessive for something like that so I rely on my appointments to check my weight.
Gender: We will find out at 19 weeks. I still think girl but not as strongly as I had before. I still don’t care which it is though.
Maternity Clothes: Not yet. All of my pants have double buttons for some reason and I have only been buttoning the bottom one. I don’t think it will be too long before I’m using an extender. I also picked up a belly band so I won’t have to buy maternity khakis for work but I am not sure I’m going to like it. I guess I ‘ll see.
Stretch Marks: Still there. Still from when I hit puberty and gained weight in the past. I did notice my first new stretch marks on my boobs, so those babies are growing. Today was actually the first day that they felt big in my bra. Before, besides the couple of stretch marks and pain, I didn’t feel like my boobs were getting bigger at all. I’m a C and I like it, I don’t want to have giant bazoomba’s that could have held the Titanic up. Whatever though. I’ll totally take those if it means a healthy baby!
Sleep: I’ve actually slept better in the last couple weeks than I have in a long, long time. I don’t know what is up with that but I will take it while I can get it. Also the peeing in the middle of the night has lightened so I’m sure that is part of why the sleeping is a bit better right now.
Best Moment This Week: I thought I felt the baby but I think it was in my head. Other than that it hasn’t been too monumental in baby world. It’s a weird in between period.
Movement: I don’t think so. I thought I felt something but I’m not convinced it was actually anything real. I guess I’ll find out eventually!
Food Cravings: Lemon-Lime Gatorade. I’ve been drinking the stuff by the gallons. Other than that I still haven’t had much by way of cravings.
Anything making you queasy?: Nope. Well nothing food wise. I do find that my throat will randomly get dry and that makes me gag a lot. It’s very strange, it isn’t fun, but what can you do? I usually drink some water.
Baby Bump?: Still none. I can feel that my uterus has gotten higher, maybe even popped, but my fat is covering it so you can’t really see if it has or not. It’s definitely going to be longer for me to show like a “normal” (this term is used very loosely) pregnant lady.
I also have this irrational fear that my uterus is going to push all my fat way up and I’m going to have some sort of weird double bump. Like an inverted camel hump on my stomach. How fucked is that thought?!?! Yeah. You don’t even want to know what goes on in this head.
Symptoms: Stretching and aches in my abs. That is the big one right now. Super stuffy nose, dry skin, but those could also be the time of year. Winter in Maine really sucks sometimes. Baby brain! I’ve been screwing up all over the place at work! Nothing big, just small things here and there. Luckily I work with laid back people, most of which who have had kids or whose partner has had kids. We’ve also had a lot of pregnant ladies come and go in our office in the past, so we’ve seen it all before.
Labor Signs?: No.
Belly Button In or Out?: In.
Wedding Rings on or off?: On.
Happy or Moody?: This week? Super moody and insecure. I feel weird about not showing like smaller ladies which makes me feel bad even though the rational part of me says to get over it and that I have no reason to feel bad. I also felt very, very lonely this week. S has been very busy with work and I just felt neglected. I have absolutely no reason to feel that way. He shower’s me with affection more than I probably deserve.
He also works with a girl who tends to make me feel insecure too. He is the restaurant’s kitchen manager and she manages the front of the house so they work together a lot. They get along really really well ( I get along with her really well too, to be honest) and have to work together all the time. So sometimes I’ll see them laughing together or she’ll come and knock on our door to update him on restaurant stuff (we are caretakers for the property at the place we work so we live on site. Something that we both hope changes come spring. We’re working on it.) Stuff that I think can wait until we/they are working, that I don’t think she needs to come to our door for on our days off. Usually it’s because she is excited about something, which is good, but it can get annoying. Anyway… the irrational, hormonal, crazy part of me starts to get super jealous of their relationship. I have no reason to be. I know I have no reason to be. I like L. We get along really well, but sometimes my crazy comes out.
Anyway they had been working on a new menu this week so I just felt like they were together a lot and she was coming to the door a lot. That mixed with my feeling lonely just kind of put me over the edge. I spent a whole day crying for no reason. And of course my pride wouldn’t let me talk to anyone about it (I knew I was being crazy, I didn’t need anyone else to tell me I was) so I spent the day alone being depressed. Luckily the next morning I snapped out of it, but yeah. Rough few days. So I’m going with moody this week.
Miss Anything?: Nope. This week was good for not missing things. I guess I missed my sanity on Wednesday when I was having my hormonal break down. I thought hormones were supposed to even out in the second trimester? I’m pretty sure mine have ramped up.
Looking forward to?: Finally feeling the baby, and knowing for sure that it is the baby! I am also looking forward to my appointment on the 26th and meeting another new doctor. At my practice there are four and they rotate you through them because you will end up with whoever is on call. I’ve liked everyone I’ve met so far. I met a new doctor at my last appointment and she was lovely. Very too the point but sweet at the same time. The only thing is that I feel like I can’t get lucky with all of them. There will have to be a point where I meet one I don’t like, right? I hope not.